Archive for March, 2011

Spring Showers

There’s still snow on the ground, about half-cover.  But Spring rains are melting it as I write.  It’s a happy dance of downpours up here on the highlands.  Down river it’s making for rising flood waters as the river people sandbag to save their homes from another overflow situation.  It reminds me how much perspective influences our view of life.

As a gardener, I can’t wait for the snow to melt and the ground to dry out enough for Spring tilling.  The farmers are happy too, at least those in the Northland, because in a week, the midwest will be saturated from higher than normal snowfall melt.  And it will pass leaving a wake of damage and delays for the Midland farm belt.  I’m focusing on the positive and praying for those who are less fortunate.

12 Step programs have taught me of the duality of life and how we can choose our focus.  The past three weeks were overwhelming for me, however, I did finish my work on time and should receive good grades.  My blood pressure paid some, and to overcome that blip, I’ll be exercising again on a regular basis to get back in shape after the sedentary shift of school work.  It felt so good to get out for a walk on Saturday, moving around physically instead of just exercising my brain!  The rain will deter the outdoor exercise this week, however, I have an elyptical to work inside to compensate.  Balance is so important, and getting back to my more balanced routine now that the heaviest of the school work is past elevates my spirit and makes me smile.  I choose to smile.

Affirmation for the Day – ” I am smiling today. ”

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Manageable

Three of my seven classes ended this week to a round of applause and great relief from me!  I set myself up for more stress than necessary.  Although it was in the interest of learning more for future resources, the scheduling was too much for me the last three weeks.

It isn’t the first time I’ve set myself up, however, it is the second time in the last six months or so as I push myself to finish a three year degree in two years in order to start earning a living sooner.  Our financial state requires it.  It’s time to start making a lot more money to pay off debt and stay current on the regular monthly bills.  Alanon has taught me over the years to avoid this over doing it type of scheduling, and other than grad school, I’ve learned to say “no” more and schedule less.  So this has been an anomaly, a blip in my self care regimen and now the worst of it is completed.

And in the midst of it all, these last two weekends have included some FUN! for a change.  A night out listening to a friend’s blues band, a night at the opera with my sister, a lovely organic lunch and catching up with my husband’s brother and his wife and kids, and dinner with a friend also to catch up all made the last week more balanced.  Next semester will include dropping two of the five classes I’m currently registered for to keep my sanity sustained.  It’s my last semester and includes practicum and writing my dissertation.  It will be busy, but more manageable.  And with the coming of Spring in our tundra land, the days are brighter, the end of school is in sight and new possibilities for my career are falling into place.  There’s much to be grateful for and appreciate!

Affirmation for the Day – ” I am almost there. ”

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Oops!

Okay, so I set a goal to do three posts per week.  Not so much, so far.  However, there’s still time to do two this week.  And I’m not going to beat myself up about it because with all that my life entails right now, it wouldn’t be fair or appropriate.

Right now my weeks consist of a practicum (21 hrs./wk.), 12 grad school credits of class, designing my thesis proposal, just registered for my last semester of school, running a household, caring for a pet, cleaning houses, marketing, bidding, hiring and supervising for a remodeling business, sponsorship, volunteering and attempting to maintain some level of significant relationship and a social life for my sanity somewhere in between all of it.  And never mind the required detachment with love from those who are still in “hijacked” status with alcoholism.  Oh, and the hormonal storms – almost forgot.

So all in all, I’m doing really well with all of this activity and the personal challenges.  And where is a Higher Power in all of that – well we talk a lot these days.  Sometimes we have teary conversations when I’m in overwhelm like this week (I was mad at Alcoholism).  And sometimes I receive gentle nudges to encourage me on to the next thing to do.  I’m exhausted, but my self care is good – plenty of sleep, regular meals, minimal anger that I get to transform into anticipation, and lots of connection on the phone or in person with my support network of friends.  I am so very blessed and I see the light at the end of the tunnel with school!

Affirmation for the Day – ” I am doing my best. ”

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